The other day I was snuggling my youngest (who hates to be put down when I am in a hurry) while frantically tossing together my daily bag, herding my oldest (who hates to be rushed while I am in a hurry) and thinking about my marital milestone of 12 years this past October when a revelation hit me... I am truely happy with where I am in my place in this world.
Sure I wish I had more hours in the day, a live in nanny, a man den for my husband, money and time to travel and give to those in need...
I am not saying that baby snuggly bliss, or spending a week with friends & "family" in the tall trees and high terrain (as I wrote this blog on paper in October) didn't have an impact on this high that I am riding...
But I will say that past health issues, job dissatisfaction, anxiety of relationship issues with hubby, friends, family, budget issies... the weight of the issues of the world.. all used to have me wound up, stressed and sick in mind and body... but they don't have as much of an influence on my ability to be happy an more.
I think the quote "I reserve the right to get smarter" which I keep on desk at work next to the quote "be polite with yourself when learning something new"... has be learning to be more relaxed about the things I cannot control, and hopefully more organized and thoughful about the things I can.
I know I am truely blessed for my household to be in good health as I watch several friends and family struggle through cancer and diabetes. I am blessed to (finally) have a job that challanges me where I am surrounded by people who respect my experience and knowledge while there are so many without work. I am blessed to have a spouse that also enjoys his work and helps provide what our family needs while there are so many without food or shelter to take comfort in. I feel blessed to have a family and a few friends who love and appreciate me... and really that fills me up and makes me happy.
All the rest, beautiful sunny days, majestic mountains, the wind talking through the trees... it is all just the frosting on the cookies of lift...
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